From the top . . . . .

Once upon a time . . . . (not too long ago LOL) I was born (hey how much more
of a beginning can we get right?? LOL) in Phoenix, AZ. (OK you'll see why I share, just follow me. . . . . from the top). I was sent on the church bus every Sunday morning. Reverend Worley of 67th Ave Baptist Church was my pastor (hell, fire & brimstone preacher with a huge heart of gold). When I was 12 he saw the love of the Lord in my life. My pastor invited me to consider being baptized after having a long talk with me and concluding I loved and believed in the Lord. The baptism never happened and my mom didn't send me to church any more.
When I was 15, I really wanted to be in church. I asked my mom and she finally allowed me to go to church again. When I was 16 I remembered reading Romans and I had been reading "Tracks" (something ntcc doesn't believe in using but it made the difference in my life!). I remember I was sitting in the youth room, behind the stage.  I had the bible in my hand and the tracks and I prayed to God, confessing my sins. I'll never forget that day! I had my then good friend looking for me. She came to me and asked me what was wrong (I was so excited I could barely speak). I told her and we just started shouting and jumping around like fish out of water. She said I want what you have so I told her everything I had read and knew and she prayed too. Again, fish out of water and we danced! It didn't take a holiness church (not bashing true holiness churches); it didn't take some hypocrite forcing stuff down my throat. It took time and it took God. With that, I was able to be a witness. I shared this part of my life to show my heart, my passion; my desire to know God (will tie in later as I go). 

In my 20's I left God, though he never left me. I rebelled and drank a little, a little doing the wrong things, etc. I had the best friend ever at this time of my life. Her name was Celina. She was literally like a sister to me. She and I were closer than anyone I have ever been close to. Thru my rebellious time, she was a good person, though she'd never been in a church. One day she had to go somewhere and decided to take a bus rather than her car. She met a woman on the bus that day. This woman told her about God. My friend (my then roommate) came home and told me about it and said she wanted to find a church and go. I knew God was talking to me. I didn't want to go that very next day. We agreed we'd go in a couple of weeks. Instead, a few nights later she and her boyfriend went to go visit his family. There was a freak accident in which she was hospitalized and a few weeks later she passed away.

I kept my promise to go back to church. I tried a few but no commitment yet. During this time of "Church shopping" if you want to call it, I hired someone when I worked at Yellow Cab of Phx. Unfortunately he wasn't very forth coming. His wife (We’ll call her “Chris") came in with a 2 month old baby and begged for me to keep him. This was the first encounter I had with someone from ntcc. I wish I would've gone with my gut and asked her to leave. Unfortunately I listened and I ended up hiring her instead (her plea's of no money, no food, and a brand new baby got to me). So, on her first night she was to work, I would do the training; my phone rang. It was Chris. She tells me her car broke down and she's trying everything she can to get in and she'll be there
as soon as she had a ride. Sucker - I asked her where she was. She gave the app. location. I said well I live right there, I'll pick you up, you find a ride home. I got to the location, it was her church.
Her pastor (Rev. Hall) came out to meet me. He and his wife are
really nice people. I have a hard time at this point of discussing my past because they are such nice people. BUT the most important thing I want to share today is; either they are nice and had a true desire as I did and they were brainwashed and really think they are right OR they are just as conniving as RWD, MCK and the rest of the leaders. Either way, no matter what, each of us has a story or as long as they stand by ntcc it speaks volumes to me. Those who have read the bible as much as he has, that have been preaching as long as he has, there has to be a degree in which they questioned what they were really being taught and what they were preaching and turned a blinded eye, or they willingly see how the ntcc leaders have gotten rich doing this and they want to be like them. Therefore, though I found the Halls to be very nice people, they stand for brainwashing & hypocrisy.
This “Chris” learned how to be a smooth operator. I didn’t realize then about her that which I know now. You see, right after really getting sucked into ntcc, she was without a place to live. Her lovely husband was in jail. She had 4 children. I had a nice home, a big home at that time (that was before ntcc. Life in ntcc meant I gave up everything including my 2,700 sq ft home!) I ended up moving her and her kids in with me. I quickly observed her lying and making excuses for things. I eventually was called in before the pastor and his wife while she excused her lies away and made it seem like it was me. See she was a seasoned ntcc pro. Don’t get caught, blame the other person and keep your standing. WHY? Because everyone is so brainwashed and so afraid of being bashed! When they suck you in, they get you to leave your family if they don’t join too. You no longer have family and friends. Ntcc is all you have and you don’t want to lose your abuser, after all, it’s all you have! It’s an awful feeling. To this day, “Chris” is still in ntcc and I’m sure she hasn’t changed. But I now forgive her (there’s more to the story!)

While I may not have strong evidence of wrong doing against ntcc as for the beginning, keep checking back and read as the story unfolds. I’m taking my life at ntcc from the top. I’m not looking to just bring out all the big points of wrong doing but all the points, even the small. With my first two posts the points may be small but they are points. I ask that as you read the various blogs that you’ll pray and ask God to show you the truth. Yes, at times they may be a bit forthcoming (for a lack of better words right now) but there is a lot of truth in these blogs. May you read them and find what God wants to show you and find healing.

I will conclude with the final questions, thought & scripture. When I was in ntcc, I heard Matthew 15 preached many times about the blind leading the blind. Jesus is asked to explain the parable. He basically says are you still dumb (he asks if they still need clarification) but really they were trying to still play dumb! (I say trying to as does ntcc. Many pastors and many BS students have read and heard the bible for how long? They have been preached to for how long? They still act dumb and just listen to whatever is told and they just do it. I can say this for once so was I!) So ntcc preachers – are you still so dumb that you will follow the blind leaders leading you down the wrong path? Are you still willing to spew forth the teachings of ntcc rather than really getting an answer from God and preaching the truth? Pay close attention to your KJV below. It’s what comes out of your mouth that is from the heart. When you lead your members astray, when you belittle them, when you’re greedy with them, it’s all coming from your heart! Why don’t you ask God to really show you the errors of your ways. Don’t criticize me because I’m free and writing about it. Every doubt you ever had was likely God trying to get your attention and you were to twitter pated with following the greedy lies of Davis b/c one day you want to be just like him. Pray and ask God to reveal the truth to you!
Members are you still willing to follow the blind into the ditch? Leave while you have any time of life left. God is good and doesn’t want to see you lying in a ditch.

KJV Matthew 15:10-20
10And he called the multitude, and said unto them, Hear, and understand: 11Not that which goeth into the mouth defileth a man; but that which cometh out of the mouth, this defileth a man.12Then came his disciples, and said unto him, Knowest thou that the Pharisees were offended, after they heard this saying? 13But he answered and said, Every plant, which my heavenly Father hath not planted, shall be rooted up. 14Let them alone: they be blind leaders of the blind. And if the blind lead the blind, both shall fall into the ditch.
15Then answered Peter and said unto him, Declare unto us this parable. 16And Jesus said, Are ye also yet without understanding? 17Do not ye yet understand, that whatsoever entereth in at the mouth goeth into the belly, and is cast out into the draught? 18But those things which proceed out of the mouth come forth from the heart; and they defile the man. 19For out of the heart proceed evil thoughts, murders, adulteries, fornications, thefts, false witness, blasphemies: 20These are the things which defile a man: but to eat with unwashen hands defileth not a man.

It's one thing if you get it from ntcc, go home, use the restroom and move on. It's another thing to sit around and let them take advantage of you. I followed. I had a heart and a passion to serve God. I was gullible and taken advantage of. I worked hard. When it was hard for me I gave more. When I didn't have time or money, I gave more. They preach it. They guilt trip it. They will call you out if you aren't doing it. NO ONE wants to be made an example of and it happens. I lost a lot in ntcc but God has blessed me more since I left. I have friends who care about me and my spiritual destiny. They won’t abandon me because I asked a question or because I left their church.

May you find peace and comfort and your days be filled with joy and the knowledge of a loving God who is full of grace.

Blessings,

Kat